The Endless Now
Will I ever be human again? I long to be human, like before. Is this merely a phase? A transition? … Continue reading The Endless Now
Category: my life
Madoka Magica: Sayaka’s Relatable Insanity
Puella Magi Madoka Magica is a misleadingly cute show about dark aspects of reality as portrayed through analogy. It tackles … Continue reading Madoka Magica: Sayaka’s Relatable Insanity
Soul Indoctrination
For years, the people around me created a religious deity which they imposed onto me, forcing me to wear a … Continue reading Soul Indoctrination
Agent of Chaos
Sometimes I wonder if I’m accidentally a naive, innocent, psychopath with empathy. This sounds absurd, cringe even, but hear me … Continue reading Agent of Chaos
Connection
This was written long ago, an expressively exaggerated amount of ago that helps me create distance and denial about where … Continue reading Connection
StoryTime: Separation and Heresy
Much of my recent creativity has been (covertly) centered around my conflicts with conformity and the way it plays into … Continue reading StoryTime: Separation and Heresy
Mother: The Intoxication of Observing Drug Users
It has occurred to me that the motivations for drug use extend far beyond the desire to feel the effects … Continue reading Mother: The Intoxication of Observing Drug Users
ADHD, Dopamine, and the Likelihood of Delusions
I’m an individual diagnosed with ADHD and one who studies psychology (B.A. in psych) with a special interest in understanding … Continue reading ADHD, Dopamine, and the Likelihood of Delusions
Justified Sociopathy
Prosocial and antisocial behavior seem to be generally reciprocal in nature, meaning that people are nice to nice people and … Continue reading Justified Sociopathy
Remeron: The Dream Drug
This drug does not seem to be discussed much in psychonaut communities, though it comes up in lucid dreaming communities, … Continue reading Remeron: The Dream Drug
The Spotless Mind
Recently my mind has been plagued with ruminations of negative experiences. In previous weeks, life has actually been quite well. … Continue reading The Spotless Mind
Phantasmagoric Meditation
A four-hour meditation to enhance imagination. Phantasmagoria – a sequence of real or imaginary images like those seen in a … Continue reading Phantasmagoric Meditation
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